Good Times...

I have been playing a lot of Online Poker tournaments lately. I have read a few books and gained a greater understanding of the game itseld. My wife and I had the discussion on if it was Gambling or not. I think in some ways yes it is but in a lot of ways it is not. I consider gambling when you lay down money to try to win more on certain odds, like betting on horses or slot machines or craps. Poker is different. In poker you have to really play the other pesons hand more than your own. A lot of people think poker is about bluffing and that the pros really know how to bluff. That is not the case. To be good in poker you have to look at peoples betting patterns and judge how they react to your bets or lack of betting.

I had been winning a lot of small tournaments where the buy in was 1.00, last night I decided to step it up a notch since my bankroll, from my accumulated past winnings, on my online account could easily take a 3.00 hit. I entered the first 9 person tournament and won first place pretty easily, which earned me 13.00. Since the previous tournament was kinda short I decided to do another one. It gets down to me and two other guys. One guy is total turd and keeps going All-In every hand that is dealt just trying to gamble and win the blinds. So I wait patiently and get Ace-Ace in my hand. I play like I have a weak hand just checking the flop. He goes all in with Ace - King- King on the board. I have a full house and call him. He loses out of the tournament and sent me some dirty messages.

Then its me and another guy left. I have a substantial chip lead on him. I have 10,000 in chips and he has roughly 3,000. So we talk back and forth, he is from memphis. He wins a good hand on me and I have 8,000 to his 5,000. I get dealt A-10, Flop is A-8-10, I have a good two pair. I make a small bet and he calls. Next card is a 2, I make another small bet and he calls. So I pin him on having a pair, probably the 10. Well last card on the River is a 10. This gives me a full house, I can't be beat with whats on the board. I figure he has an Ace or a 10 for him to continue betting. I hope it's the 10 and bet enough to put him all in. He calls and had the 10 and I won another 13.00. If I have time tonight I may step it up another notch.

Couple Things..

First off my short Story, The Clock King has been published on www.southernfriedwierdness.com , Check it and the other stories out.

Last night I experienced one of the best things a father could experience. Thatcher would come around the corner and I would roar really loud and scare him. He would turn around and run to Devin in the living room as fast as he could and just giggling like a maniac. Its one of the best things in the world to see a child so full of laughter he has to hold his tummy. I had a great time with my family last night, I am a lucky man.

My wife caught me sleeping with this Hoe...

I am so ashamed...

Mostly... I am an idiot..

I have allowed a lot of things to interfere with my walk with God lately. I have spurned God's will for my life in lieu of doing things that I wanted to and ignorning God altogether. Kendall's blog post, for many a reason, was able to slip past the cracks in my hardened heart and allowed me to open up to God and release a lot of Anger, Hurt, and Frustration I had with him. I have been lucky to know God's will for my life and have not actively pursued it. I hope to change that now...

Dad was always able to just look at me and know if I was struggling in my walk no matter what mask I tried to hide behind. We had such similar souls that it was easy to see that in eachother. I think I have done both my Father and Heavenly Father a disservice in distancing myself from the church when it may have needed me most. Hopefully God will lead me to to the place he needs me and I will now be more willing to go that direction. Thanks for putting up with me the last year I know I have been different and standoff-ish.